tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-87928953535286960162024-03-19T12:31:11.577-07:00Nguyen's Prairie Home CompanionRNguyenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15042360463163135949noreply@blogger.comBlogger22125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8792895353528696016.post-74338520180380248652015-03-03T18:02:00.000-08:002015-03-03T18:02:19.672-08:00I Posted"It's slice of life monnnth..." she says curled up across the table in her comfortable smile.<div>
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"You could just post every Tuesday and Thursday." Her eyes brighten with a little mischievous flicker.</div>
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"I do wriiite. I have lots of drafts." </div>
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"Then post one!" she giggles.</div>
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"I can't do that." </div>
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"Why?"</div>
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"'Cause they're all crappy, that's why."</div>
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She laughs, "I'm sure they're not, but how would I know if you don't post!"</div>
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Nudges. Honesty. Smiles. Squirms. Laughs. Acceptance. </div>
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My dear dear friend.</div>
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RNguyenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15042360463163135949noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8792895353528696016.post-71742616097554769662014-04-05T23:16:00.001-07:002014-04-05T23:16:11.725-07:00A Heavy List<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Night terrors</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Mother killed in a car wreck, but he survived</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Given acid by a 40-year-old man</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Mother died of cancer</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Cut her arms</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Father beat him</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Hoarded food</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Father smoked pot in front of him</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Parents didn't want him, moved between extended family</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Attempted suicide</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Pretty sure parents were making meth</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Mom was in jail</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Father pinned his over 6-ft tall frame to the wall and screamed in his face</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Moved about every six months to avoid bill collectors</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Mother missed a meeting with the school because she was drunk</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Dad in jail</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Couldn't bring himself to read <em>The Outsiders</em> because it's too much like his own life</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">No one wanted to sit by her, not even the teachers</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Dad took him to the bar, gave him a cup of quarters to play video games in the family room while he partied all weekend -- every weekend</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Restraining order against her mother</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Molested</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Only got to eat at school</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Raped</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Mother told him he was stupid</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Restraining order against his father</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">She hung on the guys because that's the only love she's ever known</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Father committed suicide</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Locked in his room</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">These thirteen to fifteen-year-olds have floated into my life around August and then left about June. I rarely ever get to see them again.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I taught in special education for over ten years. There were nights that the heartache I would carry home would be almost too much to bear. His or her name tumbling over my lips in whispered prayers as I'd make dinner or fold the laundry. And not just for the kids, but their families too. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I knew that was the best thing I could do for them. Pray. But also to be a gentle light in their world of darkness. Talk about bowling and fishing and cosmetology with them. Speak a few words of hope to his mother. Tell her father about her strengths. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">I moved to teaching English this year and</span><span style="font-family: Verdana;"> a few more were added to the list. My heart is weary for them. It's their face, especially their eyes that get me. At times, I can hardly spit out the lesson when I see their eyes. Sometimes they're blinking back tears and I can barely hear the whispered, "...<span style="font-size: x-small;">today's just not my day</span>." Another's eyes stare right through me, grey-faced, lost in painful thought and yet, protected by it's veil at the same time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">There are a some of my dear colleagues that also pray for these young lives. However, many others seem to able to just acknowledge the situation with a "That's too bad" and move on. <span style="font-family: Verdana;">There are times when I wonder if I need to toughen up, not worry about it. I mean, really, what difference can I make? </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">And the more I think on it... I'm right. I can't make a difference. Not without the power of Christ that lives within me. And it's not just <span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">me</span>. It's me joining forces with all the others that chose to stop instead of turning away. <em>We</em> by the power of <em><span style="font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace;">Christ</span></em> make the difference.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;">Those looks from these kids strike a deep chord in my heart...not pity. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana;"></span>RNguyenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15042360463163135949noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8792895353528696016.post-55050184685349352942014-04-03T20:05:00.002-07:002014-04-03T20:05:52.776-07:00Oak<u><span style="font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace;"><em>KINDERGARTEN</em></span></u><br />
Mommy, I have to tell you a secret: <span style="font-size: x-small;"> i have an imaginary friend</span><br />
Oh, that's nice. What's 'is name?<br />
Fancy Dancy<br />
Oh? (I stifle a little giggle) Is that a boy or a girl?<br />
A girl. I'm teaching her English.<br />
(more giggles) Oh really? She can't speak English? <br />
No, not very much.<br />
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Mommy, I've been writing a letters to a leprechaun. <br />
Oh really? Did the rest of your class write one too?<br />
No, just me.<br />
Oh? (I giggle) Well what did you say?<br />
I asked him where his gold is, but I told him I didn't want it. <span style="font-size: x-small;">That was a trick, Mommy!</span><br />
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This is just a little slice of how awesome this kid is. His imagination is so stinkin' fantastic that there are times that I wish I could just pretend with him the entire day. <br />
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Things with this little one didn't start out so awesome though.<br />
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To begin with, the day he decided to make his appearance in this world, I decided that he needed to stay IN. Needless to say, I was petrified. Me? Really? God, you sure you want ME to take care of this little life? I did not want to get in that Durango. No. Way. Kim's calm, but firm voice knocked over my thoughts, "Becca. We have to go. Now." Then he climbed into the truck and patiently waited. <br />
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It was a balmy morning in late May, grey and misty, just starting to feel like summer. I wondered up and down our long gravel driveway one last time. Finally I just had to blank my mind and get in. By the time Kim got me to the hospital, and all checked in, I was already 7 cm. I was showered with praises by my midwife for making it so long at home. ...She didn't know my little secret.<br />
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I'll spare you the scary details of the actual, <em>natural,</em> labor. [Although I did offer, more than once, to go into the sex ed. class at the high school and explain every last scary detail. The teacher never took me up on it. I think I scared <i>him</i>.] It was all very intense, and I was not very good at helping this poor baby out, but thank God he made it so my body did it anyway. <br />
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By the time I heard my little boy's cry I felt as though I'd been thrown through the windshield of a car and was now lying on the pavement. Utterly shaken and honestly more than a little surprised I was alive. <br />
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It is in this moment, they place this teeny little soul at the nape of my neck. I can't even hardly lift my arms to hold him. I knew I was supposed to be so happy, that all that had just happened was supposed to vanish instantly and I'd be head-over-heels in love. But I wasn't. And I felt so ugly that I wasn't. I mean, I loved him because he was my son, but I just couldn't get over the fact that they'd placed him in my care. I wanted to yell- What do you think your doing!? Why aren't you taking care of him? Can't you see that I can't do this? I didn't say anything other than, "Oh my..." over and over, but they didn't let him stay with me for long. I don't know what the reason was exactly, but that time of bonding slipped through my fingers, and I'm afraid my dear little boy paid the price.<br />
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Dakota was exceptionally alert as a newborn. When visitors came through they remarked at how he could fix his gaze. When he looked at you, it was as if he was reading your mind. He can still do it to me. He has eyes like a polished Tiger's Eye stone. When he was tiny, they'd almost hypnotize me.<br />
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I think it was partially because of this hyper-awareness that we struggled so much. It was like he knew how drastically his world had changed and how fragile he was. I called him my little pea pod. He would roll up like a little armadillo and squirmy-wormy into the nape of my neck. I think if he could've crawled back down my throat to my tummy, he would have. He wanted me and me alone. Of course it's a natural thing for a baby to want his mother, but Dakota was different. He was desperate for me. It was as if he thought that if he lost sight of me for a second, I'd be gone forever. Not the easiest thing when you're used to having time to at least take a shower and use the bathroom by yourself. Of course I'll never know if it was because of those lost moments of initial bonding or not, but somehow he'd lost his sense of security somewhere along the way. <br />
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Little by very little though, we grew our love. Tiny root hairs dug into the hard clay. I was scared. I was unsure. I was used to wrangling 14-year-olds at school, not providing every single need for a tiny little baby. But, watching him sleep, and praying, watching him wrap his brand new fingers around mine, and praying, feeling his kitten-soft hands brush the side of my cheek, and praying, reassured me. The dirt became softer, and soon a small sapling uncurled its leaves stretching to the sky while roots drove deep to the soul. <br />
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I'm so thankful that I was given the chance to figure to figure out that I'm not supposed to have it all figured out. Today my love for this child is an oak: living, breathing, steady and secured in God's grace. <br />
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refridgerator humming<br />
low lamp-light buzzing<br />
t.v. muttering<br />
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<span style="background-color: #666666; color: white; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Through this song, Christ saved my life from the lie of depression. Through a movie soundtrack, Jesus found a way to crack into my heart when I'd decided I didn't really matter any more. Through my self-induced darkness, He found a way to send a thin strand of light. "Save your soul, before you're too far gone, before nothing can be done." </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #666666; color: white; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Six years ago, my father took his own life. Little did he know he would be taking the lives of his family with him. We were swallowed by a great abyss of sadness and silence after he left. I felt as if I'd been dragged to the bottom of the ocean and left, alone, in a deep black cave with no light and only a pocket of air. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #666666; color: white; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Then work started to pile up. It was too much to bear. So I just sat there one night, with my cheek flat on my desk, staring at the mound of work to complete. I didn't even feel the need to move. Ever. I know I sat there for hours, half expecting to just be absorbed into the desk. I never considered taking my own life, I just decided I'd be done functioning. Completely.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #666666; color: white; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I hadn't even noticed it until I heard the words of the last few lines. I reached up and played the song again. I started to mouth the words. Waking my numb limbs, I stretched out to the zing of a hundred ants stinging my legs as they started to wake up. I played it again. I was singing along, my head on my hand. How long had it been since I sang? Again and again I played this song. Down in that deep cave, under miles of black waters, Jesus came looking for me. Once I accepted what those words were meant for, I felt my entire body flush with remorse. A timid, weak whispered prayer was sent; my savior sitting right next to me.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: #666666; color: white; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I wasn't on the surface yet, but I was ready to leave that cave with Him and never come back.</span></div>
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RNguyenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15042360463163135949noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8792895353528696016.post-77022475022922778292013-07-15T20:49:00.001-07:002013-07-15T20:49:59.459-07:00Peaceful Parenting - Day One"If it is possible, as much as it depends on you, live at peace with all men." Romans 12:18<div><br></div><div>For the most part, I feel that I am a fairly peaceable, likable person. At work, I think I get along with everyone (as far as I know). I was even voted "Nicest Girl" my senior year of high school. Kinda dorky I know, but I suppose it proves my point. </div><div><br></div><div>However, this easy going image of myself tends to go up in the puff of smoke billowing out of my ears when going toe-to-toe with one of the most masterful foes I've ever come across: my six-year-old. He and I both are struggling with my current tactics so I've been doing some real soul searching lately when it comes to disciplining. </div><div><br></div><div>I come from a line of feisty Dutchmen, a laser-eyed Indian, and booming Germans who tend to pride themselves on gut wrenching guilt trips and making their children cower in fear. They're not evil, horrible people. My brothers and I were never ever abused or unloved. We were deeply cherished, but strictly punished when we were small. And I guess I turned out okay, so I've been attempting to parent this same way. I don't punish nearly as harshly, but it's still there. But I'm not convinced that it's the best way.</div><div><br></div><div>While looking for some validation that I was not the only one with a kid who does this or that, I was skimming the internet when I came across, "Peaceful Parent, Happy Kids" by Dr. Laura Markham. Her website is www.ahaparenting.com. Her website had a handful of videos and several really struck a cord with me. <span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">I've not read her book, but I plan to. I don't know if this is good stuff or not, but I do know that I'm ready to have more tickle fights and bear hugs than arguments and hurt feelings. </span></div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; "><br></span></div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">My son doesn't need to get away with everything, nor does he need to be punished every time he turns around. He deserves a parent that will stay calm, or take a break herself when she can't. He deserves to be treated with sympathy and respect when he's upset. I</span><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; ">f it depends on me to live at peace, then I'm going to keep trying. He deserves to know that it is possible. </span></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>RNguyenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15042360463163135949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8792895353528696016.post-6406746268664741602013-07-13T17:23:00.000-07:002013-07-13T17:23:04.600-07:00It's Okay Mommy, You'll Fit!<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Quick shallow breaths, struggling to keep my eyes glued on my son while maneuvering all kinds of hidey holes, mini-slides, and iron grate ladders in near darkness, picking our way through a sea of hundreds more giggling, squirming kids. Through the dim light, I could just barely keep up with him. Two terrible fears of mine were clogging my brain: One - getting stuck in a small dark place, where I wasn't completely convinced that help would even be able to hear me call out over all these munchkins and Two - losing my son in this twisted mess. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The Saint Louis City Museum gave this girl a run for her money. By the way, I would not categorize this tri-level jungle gym a "museum", but I guess there were a few historical corners of this place. If you're thinking about going you either need spider monkey ninja skills to be able to stay with your kid or absolute faith in God's ultimate protection of your family. Because when you let your child slip off into this Alice in Wonderland labrynth and see them pop out an entire story above you, it can be a bit unnerving. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Needless to say... I was scared. Scared for me and scared for Dakota.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But. Dakota was amazing. He was the perfect size for this place and though it was dark a lot of the time, he was having so much fun he didn't even notice. He was totally in his element. The best part was him leading me. Not just him picking the direction, but he was choosing the way with me in mind. Picking paths that were challenging, but doable. And more than once came a little voice over the crowd, "Come on Mom, you can do it," or, "This way Mom, this way will work". Sometimes he'd take my hand or scout ahead a little then come back to show me the best way. </span><br />
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<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-size: x-small;">I have always had a special niche in my heart for reading and writing, and especially teaching. However, as a young girl at Syracuse Jr. High, I was able to go down to the elementary and help my mother a few times with the "Readiness" class. I fell in love with those kids and helping them seemed to make my life more complete. Then, I was able to take "Intro to Special Education" with Judy. Her heart and passion for her job solidified my desire to become a special education teacher. I was asked to interview only a few months after graduating college, and I've been here ever since.</span></blockquote>
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RNguyenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15042360463163135949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8792895353528696016.post-10072583200775608212013-07-08T21:31:00.001-07:002013-07-08T21:31:55.133-07:00Have you been writing?This quiet question came from a dear friend, but also one that I greatly respect. I murmured a slow, "no..." and probably added some comment like, "I should be". I hated letting her down. <div><br></div><div>My excuse before was that I was so terribly busy and exhausted. Which I was. But now that I'm on summer vacation, I don't have much for an excuse. I do write some, just with pencil and paper so no one can see except me and God. </div><div><br></div><div>During the Slice of Life Challenge I had a reason to write that made sense in the outside world. Now that I'm on my own, it has a different quality. Before, I had some sort of an audience in mind. Now, I may have no audience. It drives me into a quieter, deeper place. It's as though I've stepped out of my warm comfortable home for a late evening walk - hesitant steps into the darkness with a single candle burning. I have no intention of leaving those fond and familiar things completely, but the desire to discover something new drives me out. I may find a swarm of mosquitos, or a perfectly still, moonlit masterpiece. Most likely, a bit of both. </div>RNguyenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15042360463163135949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8792895353528696016.post-89258322190709037132013-03-21T18:52:00.002-07:002013-03-21T19:00:06.498-07:00Hudson<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>Yogurt melts<br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well, I don't always look like this, but there are times... when honestly, I feel like this. Blue, un-huggable, and closing my eyes to the truth, while spewing loud horrible things from my mouth. What's even worse it that happens more often at home than I'd like to admit. This ugly little creature takes over my body and mind and I find myself doing and saying things that I desperately want erased as soon as it takes place. It's not a creature though, it is me, a part of me that I must learn to manage. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Tucked away</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">In my dark room</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Huddled by an outlet</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Leaning over my </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Gangly, criss-crossed, eight-year old legs</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Tiny pegs</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Neon colors</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Electronic hypnosis</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Calm and quiet </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">In a riot of color</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Slowly warped</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Too many times</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Left on</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Camped beside </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Slowly dimimished</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Too many pegs became</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">G.I. Joe missles</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and Barbie drinks</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Miss this escape</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Into a techni-colored</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sigh... Okay, well let's just post something. I've got the Blogger App on my phone, maybe I'll try it out. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ahhh... okay. Blogger App error resolved. Now we're cookin' with Crisco.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Let's load a couple pics from today anndd... now what... Wait. Why can't I type anything besides a caption?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">OK, forget all the fancy stuff, that's not what this is really all about anyway, right? I'll just save what I've got and...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I think I'll just click <span style="color: #b45f06;">Publish </span>and, God willing, try again tomorrow.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Make no mistake</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Young and single</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Can't wait to mingle</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Riding a wave</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">A date I craved</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Wakeboarding in the summer sun</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Our life together had just begun</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">We're married now</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Can't believe somehow</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">We used to live life free and airy</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But it's become Little House on the Prairie</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Fields and hunting</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Baby buntings</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Minivans and soccer balls</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">No way I'd ever trade it all</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Wrote this poem very (very) quickly for an 8th grade class today. A bit cheesy, but kinda fun to play with rhyme. I tend to avoid it, however I've decided I need to let myself experiment here - to play and make a mess of things sometimes. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">And while my poem may be a bit juvenile, my muse is just wonderful.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span>RNguyenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15042360463163135949noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8792895353528696016.post-3556178351564065292013-03-07T19:35:00.001-08:002013-03-07T20:09:34.194-08:00Just Write<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Just write something. Write about... your dog, your kids, your job, whatever. It doesn't matter - just write.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Sure.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'm lovin' this entire process though. It's so very good for me. How many times have I uttered that first line to a bunch of 13-15 year-olds? Like it's no big deal, right? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">No big deal to pour your heart into something and have it critiqued.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">No big deal to happen to make a poor choice for a topic for the day and write something lame and suck-y and then have it stuck in the cogs of your brain for ever and ever wishing you could delete!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Writing takes so much more courage than we give it credit for. And I need to remember to be patient and commend my students' courage much more often. </span><br />
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Grumpily noticing something my husband did "wrong", and then walking into the next room and seeing all the things he did while I was gone.<br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Well, it's only my third slice and I'm hooked. I wish I would've been brave enough to try this sooner. I guess all things have their own time. Before I gave in, I always made the excuse that I was too busy this time of year. Secretly though, it seemed kinda, well... pointless. Now wait! Before you kick me to the virtual curb, when I was asked to slice this time around, I'd honestly been thinking on a forgotten lesson... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">A few years ago a very dear friend bought me a spot in a creativity class taught by Canadian artist Kal Barteski. [How cool was that!?!?] We experimented with all kinds of fun: photos, continuous line drawings, even crayons. Each lesson offered a video message by Kal to inspire and encourage. One lesson in particular pointed us to a video clip of Elizabeth Gilbert, author of <i>Eat, Pray, Love</i>, speaking on TED. It may be an overly referenced clip, but it's one that's definitely stuck with me. [There's a link below if you'd like to check it out for yourself.]</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I must confess I never read her book and honestly only watched the movie because Mr. James Franco tends to be easy on the eyes. Ahem. It was a pretty good movie, but what she said in her 20 minute chat was what really rang true. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Her suggestion was that people cannot be a genius themselves, instead, that they have their own "genius" [as in like a genie] that provides the special sprinkles of "wow" on whatever they're creating. I found this interesting, but not until the last five minutes or so did she hit upon a very powerful splinter of truth. Elizabeth found in her studies that long ago, during sacred dances, the watchers would chant "Allah" whenever one of the dancers were truly spectacular. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">To these ancient people, Allah meant a "glimpse of God". Yes. Truth. And for me the truth that God creates and created us in His image tells me how important it must be to create. Before, I always viewed my time singing, acting, making cards, scrapbooking, journaling, decorating, whatever... to be frivolous. Just big girl play time. After making this connection though, I realized that it's so much more than that. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Creating is a part of who we are, inherited from the one who made us. </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Christ himself was raised in a carpenter's house. Have you ever wondered what he made? I imagine him fashioning out a raw piece of wood, smoothing his hand over a finished piece, smiling warmly at what he'd created... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">How could I have missed this all those years? [And shame on me for forgetting it again!]</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">What's more impacting this time around is the revelation of the fact that God created through <i>words</i>... He spoke. He didn't think, he didn't whip up a potion. He spoke. Words, out of all our creative vessels, hold such power. I just hope that through my month of slicing I can give this honor of creation the justice it deserves.</span><br />
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<a href="http://www.ted.com/talks/elizabeth_gilbert_on_genius.html"><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Elizabeth Gilbert on Genius</span></a>RNguyenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15042360463163135949noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8792895353528696016.post-87756723226175704262013-03-02T18:34:00.001-08:002013-03-02T18:45:57.970-08:00Thief<div style="text-align: right;">
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">slowly starting to blink your eyes open </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">a dull <i>thud</i> somewhere in the upper part of the house. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Then some<i> thump, thump, thumps</i> down the stairs. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">wedging itself between you and your husband. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">While wishing you were still snoozing </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">when he whispers these words into the darkness, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">"Mommy, can I marry you?" </span></div>
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RNguyenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15042360463163135949noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8792895353528696016.post-59440407099884609562013-03-01T08:45:00.000-08:002013-03-01T09:02:01.940-08:00All is Well<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Day is done</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Gone the sun </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">From the lakes, from hills, from the sky</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">All is well</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Safely rest</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">God is nigh...</span><br />
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At least thirty meek first grade voices softly sang this tune at the end of every Troop 130 meeting. We'd all hold hands and for a few brief moments our little souls were one with each other and with God. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I had always found it a bit odd, though, that we'd end our time with Taps, a song often played at military funerals. Not that I'd been to any, but I'd seen it on t.v. [Probably M.A.S.H. or something like that.] Tonight though, this melody returns from long-ago memories to haunt me. I received a Facebook message tonight asking for contributions toward flowers for one of our Girl Scout leaders. <span style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">She's not doing well and only expected to live a few more days. </span>I don't know all the details except that I think she had a brain aneurysm several years ago. I'm guessing she never fully recovered. I honestly don't know. It doesn't really matter.</span><br />
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What does matter was that she was my mom. Not my real mother of course, but she along with the other leaders were my friends' moms. And they all helped to raise us. Taught us how to sing in a round, which shampoo was best for our hair type. Showed us how to make a shelter if you were stranded in the woods and that we are constantly surrounded by the miracle of nature. I still avoid Pantene like the plague and try to never ever miss a moment of appreciation for God's creation. </span><br />
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This dear lady was no exception to teaching me invaluable lessons. She was incredibly kind and gentle - always. When she spoke it was with such calm sincerity that I remember it vividly. I wanted to be around her just to get a little taste of that peace. I'm sure that a part of her is certainly now a part of me. And it's hard to know that she'll soon be leaving this place. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">You know, I'd had plans for my first "Slice". I wanted something simple, but cute, quirky, ...whimsical even. You know - make a good (i.e. safe) first impression. But that's not always what writing is about. It can be light-hearted, but it means so much more when its <i>real </i>and <i>raw </i>in <i>rips</i> up your guts. Tonight a simple Facebook message rocked my little world. So this post is more than a little rough around the edges, but it's a slice of <i>my </i>life.</span><br />
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